
YTuesday, July 29, 2008
Gosh i must be having some weird emotional/psychological disorder right now.
I have no idea whether I should grin, be normal or cry. I tear up at such random moments and I'm soo tired of making up excuses for myself. So weak.
I tell myself: Just don't think about it.
HOW not to?! I've got to see her or my ct's face anyway. It just comes flooding back. (Lennart was right, I need to GIVE her a durian, maybe then i'll feel better.)
freaking useless, that's how i feel. I've never felt so belittled before. Really. And this is 'supposed to help' me. WOW.
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'so how are you feeling right now? SAD?'
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fucking bitch.
hannah told you a secret at