Thanks to all the nice nice people who supported me through all this, with the pat on the back and encouraging words, totally giving me hope!:) I'm really touched, and I never felt so grateful for the people that I've been so fortunate to meet my life. ( cos i don't consider mean freaks as people) Love all of you so much!:) may we rock forever!
after all, 'it's your faith that makes you stronger'. hannah told you a secret at
10:28 PM
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Gosh i must be having some weird emotional/psychological disorder right now. I have no idea whether I should grin, be normal or cry. I tear up at such random moments and I'm soo tired of making up excuses for myself. So weak.
I tell myself: Just don't think about it. HOW not to?! I've got to see her or my ct's face anyway. It just comes flooding back. (Lennart was right, I need to GIVE her a durian, maybe then i'll feel better.)
freaking useless, that's how i feel. I've never felt so belittled before. Really. And this is 'supposed to help' me. WOW. . . . . 'so how are you feeling right now? SAD?' . . . . fucking bitch. hannah told you a secret at
10:18 PM
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YFriday, July 25, 2008
Yep take things one step at the time!:)
Stay happy no matter what happens!:) We'll always find reasons why.
hannah told you a secret at
9:28 PM
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YThursday, July 24, 2008
Just cry baby cry (Don't cry no more) Cause every tear that flows falls into the ocean rises to the sky And the rain will come Right before the sun shines.
ARGH. I have plenty of mean words to say. Yes i do. Frigging 'toot'. Just leave me be. Please. hannah told you a secret at
9:53 PM
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YSaturday, July 19, 2008
Ah. I'm back. Haha after a super exhausting week in which my mood was haywire.
I'm now so tired, I'm actually sick.
Haha i'm sick of being sick, tired, laggy, blur, sarcastic, mean and plain dumb.
I'm just TIRED.
Haha why the tiredness?
Why does my every step feel like it's weighed down by a ton of sand?
Beats me. Other people I know should feel more tired than me, cos they do more. But well, they're so strong. Haha, I should start to push myself harder. Thing is, I'm so tired right now, I just don't wanna be pushed around by anyone including myself right now.
63 DAYS MORE TO DOOM'S DAY. Argh. The stress.
Oh btw, I like The Joker a whoollleee lot. Heath Ledger rocks!:) The Dark Knight is a like a totally deep but very interesting movie. Haha which is very long (almost 3 hours!) and totally worth the $6. Haha although I was dying to pee in the end.
Oh and we had one of our last match supports this year at the track and field meet! Not our best of cheering days I'll admit. But yea, here's a few photos!:)
hannah told you a secret at
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YThursday, July 10, 2008
Haha e-learning today is soo interesting. Waking up at 8am is SUCH a luxury. Actually having breakfast while the teacher happily talks on the computer thinking you're listening is also such a plus!! Haha. I love e-learning. Ah the comforts of home.:)
VJ OPENHOUSE 2008 ON 4th October from 10 am to 3pm! We're going F1 this year! Haha hopefully, we'll have some cool cars for ya'll to check out!:) Do come down anyone and everyone!=)
Speaking of F1, i have officially screwed up my A level Chinese Oral. BIG time. Haha the convo question( translated into english) : Besides economic expansion, what else can the FORMULA 1 bring to S'pore? Haha if this was in english and i had time to actually think, maybe my oral would have been ok. Haha problem is, in the sentence alone i only understood that she( the examiner) was talking about a car race but luckily I guessed it was probably F1. Haha soooo.. When she actually asked me that, i could only stammer out 'wait, can I think for awhile?' in broken chinese. Haha then later when i actually spoke about tourists and she asked me where predominantly they would come from, i forgot how to say Asia in chinese and ended up saying Africa. WOW. Haha worse still, i felt that i must have said something wrong when they tried not to laugh so i laughed. Haha. How retarded can i get???!! Seriously. Haha so sad. But at least i had classmates who went through the same ordeal. Haha one guy even said that the tourists would stay in restaurants cos he mixed up the chinese words 'jiu lou' versus hotel which is 'jiu dian'. Haha poor him too. Well we are offically screwed. All of us i guess. Haha better work hard for written paper cos i don't wana redo chinese again next year!!!! Like a glass flower, breaking away and crumbling in the wind. Wading in magic, blowing kisses at the clouds!
Ahh i love e-learning.:) hannah told you a secret at
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